Commencement Adi

Adii... selamat lulus2an yah. Congrats and thx for the great BBQ. your photos are viewable online at HanaAgustine.Com. Liat2 aja deh pokoknya. Buagu2s.

I have been developing Fairwaysoft.com, making a demo store to convince my customers and there are some bugs. Annoying bugs. But it's ok. No worry, slow but sure aja.

My roomate, Bill, encourage me to keep going on. Thx man. I appreciate it so much. You are my roomate, and also my mentor in IT world. Huehuheu.

Hana. I went to the Michigan Lake beach today sama anak2 CG (BBQ-an) and aku nyesel gak ajak kamu ke situ dulu. Bagus man tempatnya. So sorry honey. Next time kita ke amrik, aku pasti ajak kamu ke sana yah.. :) tapi sementara kamu harus puas liat2 di photo aja. Well aku juga rada kurang bisa enjoy sih waktu di sana, kepikiran kamu terus. Nyesel gak ajak kamu ke sana. :( but anyway many more places we will visit together.

Gue sempet pusing juga mikirin ini bisnis. Basically plannya lom begitu solid aja. Pengen cepet2 balik indo supaya bisa segera jump into the "river" and drink from there. Tapi masih banyak juga yang bisa dipelajari di US ini. Makanya pulangnya ditunda dulu deh.

Gue dah lama gak call family di indo nih. How are they doing yah. Besok telfon deh.

Really fun day

Heiiahh.... pakabar pemirsa yang bijaksana? Saya di sini ok ok saja. Tapi hari ini gak gitu effektif. Seharian kerjaannya bikin demo store buat fairwaysoft.com, modi website Hana, and upload2 photos. Pokoknya u need to jog to http://www.hanaagustine.com deh. banyak photo2 bagus di sana. Ceritanya sih website itu mau dibikinin community photo gallery. Trus kalo nanti udah rame kan bisa di link ke website photo Hana yang biz punya. huehuehue.

Demo Store is online at fairwaysoft.com/demo/store1 and store2. But then late at night I just realized there is an SSL problem. I will fix it tomorrow or sometime later.

O by the way I called hana this afternoon, it was a very fun talk. It's been a while since we joke around crazily like that. I want some more (tergantung moment2 lah ya... kalo begitu terus2an mah nanti bosen juga). We talk about purdue ppl change a lot when they came back home to Indo. and Hana ngatain gue bejat... haha. Pokoknya lucu deh bagian situnya. SENSOR... tuuut... :) Wah pokoknya kita ngobrol seru banget deh.

Irfan invited me to have diner together at Lao zechuan. We had lots of talk. It was really fun. We talked my stuff and his stuff. future planning, wedding, music team, people, Hana, biz, et . It was a great blessing to be with him.

My roomate, Adi, just got his iPOD. He was so excited... charge it and after a few hours he tried to play it. I can see that the iPOD will not hang around too far from the owner Ya udah dulu deh ya. Dah malem nih dah waktunya istrirahat.... I wanna read God is My CEO before going to bed.

Ciao....

Lonely day after 2 yeras

You see, for the last 2 years I never felt lonely at all. Hana was there for me physically, not too far at least. Today is the 5th day I live alone in US (2nd week day) and I really feel lonely. Now I learn that even though your conscience might be ok with something that does not mean you are ok. Your body, soul and mind psychologically might say differently. Even though I don't think that I am sad but I am sad. I tried to find out for what specific memory am I missing, I don't clearly recall but my other parts know.

I went to Hana's apartment in chicago to clean up the stuff before the subleasee move in. Man that room is so filled with good time memories. I just clearly recall her being there with me. I want those moments back again and I call her name over and over again like I used to do when I called her to come over. Ahhh... just sweet memories. The pillows were there even though the be was gone. Some furnitures are were gone but I could still remember exatly what the room was like. So saaaaaad.......

Coming back home from Hana's apartment I was a complete torn down. My mood went bad and I became hyperactive. I guess that's the way my body escaped from the sadness. It's weird I know, but that's what happened. I was overwhelmed by the sadness.

Hyperactive actions:
1. Clean up the house
2. Re-arrange my bed/living room
3. Clean up and re-arrange my desk
4. Hit golf balls
5. Teased my roomate like never before
6. Wrestle with my roomates (This was fun)
7. Bought bubble tea @ Joy Yee's (I seldom wanna spend $3.60 for this)

Begitulah hari ini, gue gak bisa productive at work since I was jsut so sad.
But I believe God has smth for us.

New photo frame. Look at the beautiful picture design by Hana at the final night she was in US. Pretty small but you can see how pretty it is isn't it. 

My beloved living and bed room and work room at once. Basically since Hana left me for Indo here is where I live + Borders book store. 

New Clock and a creative Cell Phone Holder 

Work Table 2 

Work Table 

Huello, here are pictures of my newly arranged bed/living room. Notice the new photoframe, small glass, bell, and my cell phone holder. This will be my new work table. 

A picture that describes love and compassion

Here's one unforgetable memory bwn me and Hana.

Baby I'm so lonely

May 12th, 2005. Chicago O'hare, Illinois. USA. 5:00 PM
As Hana entered the boarding area I start my life as a loner again in USA after 2 beautifully collored and accompanied years.
We knew the day is coming sooner or later but then it's a sad day no matter how prepared we are.

The airport was busy as usual and so was I, busy to manage my emotion. I don't want to get carried away and pour it all infront of the guys... So here's what I did: talk to the guys about anything that takes our minds away from the good bye thingy.
Hehehe.... that worked for me but didn't seem so for Hana.

Hana was the last person allowed to enter the security check gate. There were some oldies came after her and were not allowed to get in. Adi and Mimi arrived just on time, right before Hana had to walk to the other side of the gate. God bless them (Adi, Mimi and Hana). Pasti si Hana seneng bener deh. What a sacrifice you made guys... (hahahaa.... pardon my manner).

Hana walked across the security gate and weaved her hands to us. Then she and Rudy walked away, gone from our sight. Then I told the guys that I wanted to stay over in that terminal, not going to Yafet's terminal (T3). Sandy stayed over with me.
Here's the mellow part, I couldn't stop my mind and my heart to rush into Hana. So there you go... gak sampe nangis bombay sih. But I held back, ada sandy sih. Hahaha.

Then I drove back home alone (some parts of the story are untellable). I almost always had driven with Hana for the last 2 years and now that has to change. Sedih banget rasanya. Biasanya di mobil bisa ngobrol, bisa ini and bisa itu. Sekarang kurisnya kosong... unoccupied. Baby I'm so lonely.

Things will change from today and on.
Both of us will have a big shock for who knows how long. But I believe this happens in God's knowledge and His eyes are watching me and Hana all the time; seeing what we see and feeling what we feel. If He allows that to happen, than it is a good thing.
I don't see this as an end, I see it as a positive change and a beginning of the better journey of my life. Even though sadly going back for to to Indonesia but Hana is going back with God's promise in her hands. This is God's provision to His faithful daughter.

God may let us through hard times, but He is never having the hard time himself in paying full attention to our lives.

I miss my honey already. :(

-- Nonetheless, God bless today and tomorrow --

New Baby to my BABY

Yeeehaaaw... finally Hana got her new babe. A small, pretty and powerful one. It's size upon birth is 12.1" the weight is about 4 lbs. Not too bad at all... it reads DVD and has CDRW ability.
The gender is DELL, more specifically DELL 700m.

Huehuehuehue... Congrats Hon.

-- Nonetheless, God bless today and tomorrow --

Music Lesson

Wallah... today I spend the day with Hana and Adi Wu. We ate dim sum at 3 happiness. We odered 2 batches. I thought the 1st won't be enough then I ordered the 2nd. It turned out everybody went so full and we left behind some food.
Then we search for jobs together at Adi's place.

7:30 pm I went to Irfan's place to have a music practice. Well, well... there are a lot to learn in that practice. Basically Irfan and Bun2 reminded me again to my passion to play drum and thei play stretches my capacity already in 1 night. May be not technically but sensitivity to the music wise.
And they are funy people... they have ton's of stories.

A friend of mine got hand-cuffed by the police for passing through a red light and his license was suspended a lon time ago. $200 gone for that. So sory man.

Then, just now, Hana told me that she got a surpise for me tomorrow. Not materials... but smth. I wonder what that is!

Be in Lafayette tomorrow. C'ya then.

-- Nonetheless, God bless today and tomorrow --